Waiting is not an easy thing to do at times. It takes a great deal of patience to put up with everything. I’ve been a very patient person to say the least, but sometimes we question how much longer we have to wait. I know that Miss right will come along eventually, but many failed attempts and heartbreaks have left me wondering how much longer. Every time I feel like I’m close I end up screwing things up. But that is to be expected; deep down, because I am still that dorky kid that was shy. I have always had a problem with commitment which is why I probably have a hard time getting into a serious relationship and prefer messing around. But lately with the bonds I’ve been forming I think I actually want to try this time around. She give me the butterflies when I’m around her, kinda like the ones we used to get when we were kids. I don’t know if she likes me, I’ve told her once before that I liked her. and while flattered just wanted to remain friends. I’m alright with that, not bummed or anything I’ve gone through worst in the past. But who knows, can a person’s feelings change overtime? Could a person who just wanted to be just friends eventually grow feelings for someone? Maybe and then again Maybe not. I know god and stuff has laid out a path for me, and whatever it it may be it will eventually lead me to where I need to be. If it is meant to be then it will happen if not then just gotta move one. But I know when the time comes it will be well worth the wait. As they say great things come to those who wait.
Long ago I had a vision that I would be a small % of people who made a difference in changing the world for the better and since then it has been my goal. While I may not tell people this, this has always been a goal of mine. I look around the world and see so much hatred and I feel like I am one of many who can tackle that hatred. When I younger I wasn’t a great person, I myself was full of hatred and only cared about myself. I was bullied, overshadowed by others and quite never fit in anywhere. Later down the road I met people who changed me. Those people accepted me for who I was and let me into their world. Since then I tried doing the same thing by helping people in any way I can so that I too can change their heart. Who knows what of may been if I kept going down the original road I was going. I could of easily been in jail or worse.
Throughout the years I have done my share of helping people using many different things as a medium. In my high school days I would use sports as a medium. I would gather all the kids in the neighborhood to play a friendly game of football, basketball, or whatever. This would help keep the kids active instead of sitting in the house all day, by doing this I would also keep the kids out of potential trouble Like joining gangs. Parents in my neighborhood and thank me time to time when they had the chance to tell me what a Nice thing I was doing.
I feel like we as people must learn to change ourselves in order to make this world a better place to live. To me even touching one persons life can make all the difference. I mean just look at me. Before I was rude, disrespectful, inconsiderate, and many other horrible things. Since then I’ve matured into a gentleman and someone who cares about his loved ones. One thanksgiving I was sent a text. It read “Happy Thanksgiving, I want to thank you for what you have done for me, you changed my life for the better and I have you to thank for that” That alone lifted me up in more ways than anything. I didn’t do anything special I mainly use what I have at my disposal as a medium
These days I mainly use Music and Dancing as a medium. Teaching dance has been the greatest time of my life. I’ve have met some amazing people. But I’m not just helping people learn to dance. I’m teaching them more than just. I’m teaching them the have the confidence to go after anything, to no be afraid, and open up and stop holding back. These are the thing I was to pass. I play music not just because I love it, but do it with the hopes of inspiring others. In the end everyone just needs a little bit of love and if we can give that love to everyone then this world will be a much better place to live. Until then I shall continue helping people with Dance and music. and soon I will leave for the military in which I hope I can spread my love elsewhere with the hopes to inspire and change.
A Happy 6 years to me and my love. I was so caught up in things this month that I totally spaced out and forgot. Now let me say that today isnt really the day it was a couple weeks ago towards the beginning of the month but it all counts.
6 years ago marks the day I made a transition into the dancing world. A unexpected Journey that has taken me for quite the ride. Now I have only been dancing Ballroom for 5 years but dancing in general for 6. Back in 2008 I was engaged by the Show America’s Best Dance Crew. And Inspired by it I started watching youtube videos to learn how to dance. I learned to tut and learn other various forms of dance simply by watching videos and practicing. Down the road my vision changed, I got hurt my foot playing ball and was on intensive rehab. I then used ballroom dancing as a class during my time at college to use it as a form of rehab, Little did I know that choice would push me even more. I feel in love with dancing more than I had before and then moved from the hip hop world into the ballroom world. I now was dancing best of both worlds. This journey has introduced me to some of the best people I know and I have had the greatest moments trough dance. From everyone to my Ballroom Family, to my salsa crew, to VCU, to my poppers and so forth. Thank you for an amazing 6 years of dancing!!!!!!!
We all have heard the phrase Nice guys finish last.But in reality most of us are not really nice. Sure we go around thinking that every other person other than us is a douche and we think that we are somehow this perfect person for that special person.
I know I am not perfect, I have many flaws and do many things I shouldn’t but still do anyway. So why do we insist on punishing ourselves all the time. Mellowing in heartache and pain instead of smiling. Sure it hurts when the person you want to be with doesn’t feel the same way and they go for someone who you think is totally wrong for them. But let us look at ourselves; because when I think about it, Why am I perfect for them? I know I’m not perfect and I probably don’t deserve a person such as that. I learned in my years to stop holding onto things and just go with the flow.
Holding onto grudges, hatred, and negativity will only make you miss great moments in life. I know people who usually break up do the following: the no speaking again, avoiding, blocking deleting. etc. Now I understand if it was something horrible like Abusive, cheating, etc. along those lines. But something like a simple mutual break up like: they changed, not really in love anymore, stupid fights, and normal break up stuff. But why do we resort in taking our anger out afterwards?!? Probably because its easier to us but truth is it is not. Because a path like that will only take you down a dark road that you really do not want to go.
Live is short and we must learn to appreciate each day. While I know sometimes I may hurt from heartache and such and past stuff. I learned just to be an Iron wall and fight on. I have so much to live for and Things happen for a reason. Because to me the whole point of relationships is to see if they are the one.
Anyone I have no idea why I really wrote this I just started typing LOL. But Love is a great thing, but dont let love become something else, because a tainted heart is bad.